#55 Most Loving

How can He be the Most Loving when He lets bad things happen to me? … is what some of us might feel when we go through challenges in life. I’m sure you have your own tests in life. Each of us will have our own curated “menu” of tests that we each have to go through. And many times, we look at each other’s tests and think “Omg I could never go through what you went through.” Someone said to me before, “If I went through what you went through, I think I’d kill myself.” Fuhhhhh. Well, thankfully, I never thought to do that. 😅 But honestly when I look at some other people’s tests in life, I think “God I could never imagine going through that.” Truly truly truly, we have all been chosen for tailor-made tests that God knows we each uniquely have the strength to bear. And no one’s test is smaller or bigger than the other. But we’re still human. Yes, maybe we can bear the tests. We have no choice, really. But how is it that we can feel God is Most Loving when we go through them? You love me, therefore You put me through pain? Hmmmm. Make it make sense. … was what I thought initially too. See, when I went through a big test, I got a lot of DMs from strangers online and the summary of it is largely this: “Allah must love you because He’s testing you like this.” I had to read that a few times because I just couldn’t see the logic. What I went (still going) through was so scary, so public and extremely humiliating – you’re telling me THIS is love?